Here I am, sitting down beside you. My back is straight my legs are crossed and my hands sit restfully in my lap. I am stone still beside you. Alive, but not moving. Everything seems as it should be. And, to be honest, it is. But if you were to look closer, straight into my eyes, you would see that things are different than you'd expect. I may be seated next to you, but that is not where I am.

Don't be alarmed, things are exactly as they should be. My thoughts are currently curled into the side of my Father like a child afraid of the unknown lurking in their dark bedroom at night. My body may shake of uncertainty, but my safety is so lovingly reassured.

It is here that I pray:

You have placed these paths in front of me;
One to choose and one to leave behind.
Tears have been shed in exchange for clarity
Yet the balance holds gold and feathers equally.

My feet hold stronger than concrete
They cannot move in opposites.
Though my hand is tightly in Your grasp
I am assured I cannot stray from Here.

Strength and patience dissipate
My mind aches in strain.
A deep sigh of relief within,
I have nothing left but You.

Long have I pleaded guidance
To make clear the better choice.
A new request varies as east from west;
Disregard past prayers and pleas.

Each side of the fork share different joys,
How do I choose diamonds from crystals?
Let me not simply smile at either,
Allow me the strength to walk away from both.

Hesitancy is bred in thoughts of leaving behind
It fears drowning the soul in 'What if?'
If on the right and the left hesitancy is surpassed,
The cuffs binding certainty may be released.

You make it clear which paths not to tread
It is the good and right that I fear choosing.
One to choose, one to leave behind,
I only seek to find that I need neither.

Beside You I could go anywhere,
I am merely limited to one.
You are my refuge and my solace,
I cannot go wrong beside You.

Here in Your arms I find peace;
Rest for the weary and power for the weak.
It is here that I remain;
Calm in uncertainty and confident in choice.

I am sitting next to you on the bench soaking up the sunshine. I may smile and say hi, carry on some small talk. But all the while my thoughts remain curled up there with my Father. They will be for a couple days now but like I said "things are exactly as they should be."

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